Waiting to Exhale

Well I've been out walking since my last doctor's appt and I'm going back to the doctor today at 12:30 to see if I've made any progress. I'm crossing my fingers that I have :) This last week has been really rough because I've been hurting so bad. I don't remember any of this happening with Charlie. I think that if it had he'd definitely be an only child. I hate to complain, but I'm just plain miserable right now. I hope that with all of this preparation for the big day that my body has been doing, then my labor will go fast and uneventfully. I've got alot of anxiety over this whole labor thing which is surprising to me because I totally now what to expect this time. All of my anxiety centers around John Michael being healthy when he arrives. I know that it sounds crazy, but I don't care about the pain....I just care about hearing him cry and the doctors saying that my baby is okay. I sure do hope that this anxiety goes away after he is born. Our last year has just been so hard after losing our other baby. Please pray for this to be the start of healing for me. Even though I never met that baby I haven't been able to make it through even one day since then without thinking or crying about it. This has been the hardest thing that has ever happened to me and I desperately need to find some peace about it. Please pray for John Michael's safe arrival also. We are so excited about finally getting to meet him! Charlie can't stop talking about him. He's going to be such a FANTASTIC big brother!